Oct/073
Evite = devil
I threw my fear of rejection out the window and sent out my very first evite for my upcoming birthday. I was hemming and hawing about what to do and decided to just have it at The Mint, the karaoke bar I frequent because well, I would just drunkenly demand we go there anyway, since by the end of the night, all I wanna do is sing my fat little heart out.
Anyway, this invitation has turned me into an evite checking monster. I can't stop checking it. I almost fell asleep last night and then realized that I forgot to check for new RSVPs and then I actually opened up the laptop to check. Somebody stop me, PLEASE.
I wish I could just send it and not look at it, because it's feeding my neuroses fierce - the aggravation of seeing that someone looked at the evite, but didn't reply is infuriating or even worse, if the person hasn't looked at it, especially since all my friends are on email all. freaking. day. And then the people who do "maybe" instead of a yes or no, WHY? Why not just say no? What are you scared of? That I am a mess who is going to judge my self worth on the amount of people who come to my party at a GAY KARAOKE BAR on Halloween weekend?
Don't answer that.